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Morning everyone :) Oh right, I didn't tell you I didn't go to school yesterday right? Yeah, I didn't. Because of art thing and also Ashraf :/ I cant stand it. Whenever I see his face I'll be sad. Anyway, instead Illin came to my house and we did together. We had fun. Thank you Illin :B I was trying to forget about Ashraf by laughing my ass off. But I failed -______- I actually talked about him like wow almost the whole day. Damn, I hate it. I stalk him 24/7. Now he really really really hates me :/ How sad. The person I love the most hates me the most. Wow. Well, whatever lah. I'm gonna act like nothing happened, I don't know him and stuff. So today I have to fake a smile cause I'm going to school :/ Damn it lah. Hm, btw, yesterday night I texted Ashraf. A looooooong text. I cried my eyes out yesterday. Couldn't breathe through both nose. Had to use my mouth. Ok, hate myself for being so moody. I think I should stop ...

I promise I'll update my blog about something else also.

I wish for a better day.

MORNING WORLD.

I wish for a better day today. I hope so. But I dont think so cause like he's going to school, he's going to ignore me, I have to hide my sadness and fake a smile. :| Well, I should stop. I'm being annoying. Damn. Oh btw, I've been thinking how to make him happy and I just realised only one thing that can make him happy, I should *** . Ah, nevermind. Forget about it.

I should stop talking about him. Ok. Hey, I love my family, cousins and friends :) Hehe, random much. Hiding my sadneess. So yeah, Im trying to do my homework now. Boring -___- I've be waiting for my friend since 7AM and she's still not here. So not gonna talk to her. I slept at 1AM and woke up at 7AM. God damnn it :/ 

Gonna continue doing my homework. Bye :)

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Life is getting harder.

Heyyyy. Today was actually a fun day. I was hoping for a good day but nope. Went to Cheer Competition. Well, I'm not gonna talk about it cause I didn't really have fun. I was kinda alone all day :| I know, I have a sad life. Well, I hang out with Reena the most. And took picture with Shazmone and Kate :')

Anyway, I'm gonna continue with why I'm sad. It's actually like this ... Ashraf tweeted something that it's obvious for me. He tweeted 'Honestly, I don't love you anymore </3' and 'GO DIE lah. I don't need you in my life'. I was so freakin sad and I started to cry. So then, I asked Yi Hong to ask Ashraf and he did. Yi Hong said that he said he really hates me. I cried like more than 5 freakin times wondering why he hates me soo much. And Reena asked him too. He said he doesn't hate me, he just don't love me anymore. So obviously Reena's gonna ask WHY kan. He said that I did bad things to him and he asked Reena to ask Ayeesha what is it. So yeah, I asked Ayeesha and Ayeesha said because I always give <3 to guys. Whatthehell man. I didn't do anything bad punnnn :( I was freakin sad. I stood up alone. I went out, in, out, in, out, in the whole day alone and also I cried :| You know how it feels when someone you really loves, hates you. Damn. I hate myself. Even though he's like this I still LOVE him so much. Haih :/ Hate my life now. And guess what Reena told Ashraf that I'm crying and I'm very sad and he replied 'Awww, really? Sad'. And lagilah I started to cry lagi teruk. Oh, I cry like almost everynight because of HIM and Reena told him and he said 'No! He cries everynight because of boys'. WHATTHEHELL!! I don't like anyone except you ASHRAF! :(

A note to Ashraf;
Hey, I know you really hate me now :/ But to let you know I really really love you. I know you lied about loving me but I NEVER did. NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE. I don't get why you hate me sooo much. I bet someone told bad things about me to you kan? I know you don't need me in your life but I need you in my life seriously :( If you don't love me anymore, it's okay. But please please friends like we used to be? :''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''( I cried more than 10000000 times and you don't even care. But I care for you like shit man. Damn. ASHRAF PLEASEE. Please please. I love you so freakin much. You know I rejected more than 3 boys because of YOU. No one else. I cannot move on because of YOU. You are like my first love. Is hard for me to forget about you. IS HARD. I wonder how you can easily get over me but I cant :/ Nvm, just to let you know I love you with all my hearts <3 Bye.

I miss you.

I'm sorrry readers if its too much and annoying. You guys just don't know how I feel right now. If you guys were me, you guys will feel the same thing. But I know you guys don't want to. So yeah. So so sorry yeah :|

Pictures of you.

I'm gonna mix all the pictures that I have but I'm gonna write the date. So, don't worry okay?


Monday, 4th July 2011

Saturday, 9th July 2011.

So, I'm done with today's :) There's no more picture in this computer. It's all in the camera. Whenever there's more picture in this comp or I'll transfer later, I promise I'll upload it here. GoodBye.

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I'm back.

Hey, I'm back :) Ahaha. Ok, this is like my 5th blogger, I think. I know a lot kan? Cause like last times blog I forgot my password and I didn't blog much. This blogger I'm gonna post pictures only. If it's boring then don't see. Hehe, ok bye. Enjoy :D

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